Shabby Miss Jenn

Tuesday, July 12, 2005

Weeded out my Zen Garden

So my ZEN garden had become overgrown knotted with knarled and twisted weeds.
I am talking about my "inner Zen garden". I would sit back at the end of a day and have a zillion things running thru my head. I was in a creative rut . I was carrying too much "past baggage" around with me and nothing good could break thru the garden gate :(

That all seems to be changing for me........

Many of you that already know that I was married before. I was in an abusive relationship. I got my divorce after a very hard time. For many years after that.....I have had a strained relationship with my exHusband.
I couldn't let go of the hatred and hurt from all those years.
It was playing a huge part in the knotting of my Zen garden.

Last week out of the blue, he and I had the chance to talk. There was a death in his family and she will be missed by many.( XO~FRAN) He and I ended up talking for quite a while and said things that hadn't been said before now. No yelling. No name calling. No crying. Just much needed talking took place. There was even laughter!

I will never FORGET...... but I was so very ready to FORGIVE.

The twisted weeds and old flowers pulled apart in my Zen Garden!New flowers are blooming again! Creative water is flowing.

If your inner Zen Garden is knarled and twisted..... look for a way to maybe get weeding!



Megan Tucker said...

Cedara...I am so happy that you were able to have some closure for all that you've been thru!! Glad that letting it go has allowed the good things to shine on thru!! CONGRADS on all the great things happening in your life!!

Cedara_ThruTheAtticDoor said...

Love ya Megan!
Want to come play in my garden?